YA LGBT

Review of The One True Me and You by Remi England

December 5, 2021 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

Blurb

One small fandom convention. One teen beauty pageant.

One meet cute waiting to happen.

Up and coming fanfic author Kaylee Beaumont is internally screaming at the chance to finally meet her fandom friends in real life and spend a weekend at GreatCon. She also has a side quest for the weekend:

Try out they/them pronouns to see how it feels

Wear more masculine-presenting cosplay

Kiss a girl for the first time

It’s… a lot, and Kay mostly wants to lie face down on the hotel floor. Especially when her hometown bully, Miss North Carolina, shows up in the very same hotel. But there’s this con-sponsored publishing contest, and the chance to meet her fandom idols… and then, there’s Teagan.

Pageant queen Teagan Miller (Miss Virginia) has her eye on the much-needed prize: the $25,000 scholarship awarded to the winner of the Miss Cosmic Teen USA pageant. She also has secrets:

She loves the dresses but hates the tiaras

She’s a giant nerd for everything GreatCon

She’s gay af

If Teagan can just keep herself wrapped up tight for one more weekend, she can claim the scholarship and go off to college out and proud. If she’s caught, she could lose everything she’s worked for. If her rival, Miss North Carolina, has anything to do with it, that’s exactly how it’ll go down.

When Teagan and Kay bump into one another the first night, sparks fly. Their connection is intense—as is their shared enemy. If they’re spotted, the safe space of the con will be shattered, and all their secrets will follow them home. The risks are great… but could the reward of embracing their true selves be worth it?

Review

Kay is a well-known slash fiction writer who is thrilled to be spending a weekend at GreatCon (a Sherlockian type of convention) with their fandom friends. They are also questioning their gender identity and sexuality and plan on exploring it more over the weekend at the Con. Unfortunately, Kay is unaware that the hotel is also hosting the Miss Cosmic Teen USA pageant and in attendance is Kay’s dreaded nemesis, Madison (Miss North Carolina), who has made Kay’s life pure hell at school. Kay is fearful that Madison will connect her to her online persona and out her to the entire school. But Kay is not the only person whose life Madison is making miserable. Madison has also targeted a beauty queen named Teagan, Miss Virginia, Madison’s main competitor. Teagan is also a closet lesbian and a fandom fan herself. Things get really interesting when Teagan sneaks away from the pageant chaperones to attend the Con and meets Kay. Needless to say, sparks immediately fly between them.

My inner geek absolutely adored this story! I tend to enjoy books about fandoms, and this one ticked all the right boxes for me. What also worked was the high-stakes tension that continued to build throughout the story. Kay and Teagan each have a lot to lose if their identities become public, and as the story progresses, the hateful Miss North Carolina gets closer to uncovering them. It was also fun how the author pitted the fanfiction/Con world against the pageant world while highlighting the good and not-so-good aspects of each of them. The story is told in alternating POVs between Kay and Teagan, so we get a close-up and personal glimpse in each of their worlds.

I loved the fact that we have two young women who are both exploring their sexuality and gender identity. The romance between them was sweet and heartwarming, as they both also made discoveries about themselves in the process. It was beautiful how they get to know each other and move past their self-imposed barriers. The “opposites-attract” romance between the two of them is not only endearing but also inspiring as they both made some difficult decisions.

I also loved the hard-hitting conversations about gender, queerness, labels, body image, and the beauty community. Through these conversations, the author attacks the stereotypes of both of these communities and gives the reader plenty of thought-provoking topics to contemplate as a result. The novel also touched on themes of love, self-confidence, the judgment of others, identity, shame, competition, and fandoms, so in this way, there is a lot of depth to this story.

Additionally, I adored the fandom community, as illustrated in the story and the heartwarming connections that the people made with each other. The found family aspect of the novel was especially touching. It was also heartwarming how the book celebrated beauty in all of its different forms and facets. The author did a splendid job of capturing the excitement and spirit of fandoms (being somewhat of a Con fan, myself) which left me with a warm and fuzzy feeling at the end.

Overall, I thought this was an amazing, affirming book about self-discovery, and I give it 5 out of 5 stars.

This book will be published on March 1, 2022 but it available now for preorder.

A huge thank you to Netgalley for providing a review copy of this book.

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Review of If This Gets Out by Sophie Gonzales & Cale Dietrich

September 12, 2021 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

I’ve read other books by Sophie Gonzales and have enjoyed her writing, so I was excited when this book about a wildly popular boy band came to my attention. This novel paints an eye-opening portrait of what life in such a band is like, and it’s not as glamorous as it’s cracked up to be. Our story focuses on Ruben Montez and Zach Knight, two members of a four-person band called Saturday whose friendship transforms into a slow-burn secret romance. The book then explores the reaction of the label as well as that of the other band members (Jon and Angel), and soon, cracks begin to form.

On the surface, this novel is about a romance between two band members, but it goes much deeper than that. At its core are hard-hitting issues such as the dark side of the music industry, drug abuse/addiction, emotional abuse, parental abuse, homophobia, toxic dynamics between the band and management, exploitation, the pressure of being famous, identity, and mental health, all of which are explored through the multiplicity of characters the author has created. Though this is an intense story in places, it’s also a hopeful, upbeat, and heartwarming story about love, coming together, following your dreams, and found family.

As for the romance, Zach and Rueben were absolutely adorable together. They are very much in sync, so much so that I had no trouble in seeing that they belonged together right from the beginning. I loved their chemistry, their concern for each other, and how they communicated their feelings. Though messy at times, theirs was a sweet and tender romance that was a joy to read. The author tells the story from the alternating POVs of Rueben and Zach, so it was nice to get into both of their heads to view the situation from their perspective.

Alongside this engaging story, the author gives us an incredible cast of characters. I loved the dynamics between all four band members — how much they cared for each other and how much they grew, not only as individuals but also as friends. Their connection was amazing, and I adored the way they supported each other and ultimately saved each other. The characters’ personalities shined through like a bright light that zinged right to my heart, and I couldn’t help but deeply care for each and every one of them by the end of this story. There’s magic in finding the people with whom you belong and making a home for them in your heart, and that is what we see in this novel. Thus, I feel that the character development in this story is phenomenal, and each character is relatable and engaging. Every character is well-fleshed out and necessary to the brilliant rendering of this story.

I loved the tantalizing glimpse into the day-to-day life of the band. It was a treat to get a behind-the-scenes glance at the life of a popular boy band, and I felt that this helped the reader identify and empathize with the characters.

I never thought I would gush over a book about a boy band, yet here we are. “If This Gets Out” brought a smile to my face and gave me all of the right “feels.” And though the plot is compelling, it’s the characters that make this book truly shine, and they all captured my heart. This emotive book explores so many different facets of love, be it familial, platonic, romantic, in all its aspects. Recommended!

A huge thank you to Netgalley for providing a review copy of this book. This book will be released on December 7, 2021 but it available now as a preorder.

Review of Dead Sea by Mia Kerick

March 20, 2021 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

Blurb:

Kyle is a swaggering bully; Lenny strives to be invisible.

Kyle has been left alone in the world; Lenny is the world’s biggest loner.

When Kyle saves Lenny from drowning, their lives will never be the same.

After a brutal encounter with school bullies, Lenny swims out into the ocean, determined to let the current whisk him away. Next thing he knows the meanest kid in town is pulling him from the waves, promising to be his Dead Sea, and to never let him sink.

All Kyle wants is to get out of beach cleanup, is that too much to ask? So he goes for a swim, only to come upon the most epic “nobody” in the senior class drowning in a riptide. Lenny’s haunted gaze grips him, and Kyle makes the impulsive decision to save his life or die trying. And through this ordeal, Kyle and Lenny are transformed.

Kyle’s heroic act sets him on the straight and narrow, and he opens his heart to the young man he dragged from the ocean. Lenny changes too but is still unable to reveal the truth of his pain. While drowning in a sea of secrets, the reformed bully and wary victim fall in love. But staying afloat in the Dead Sea is not as simple as it seems.

Trigger warning: one character attempts unsuccessfully to die by suicide as is noted in the blurb, further discussion of death by suicide

Review:

The story follows Lenny, a seventeen-year-old talented creative kid who loves to sew and dress up in costumes. After an upsetting event during which all of his secrets risk exposure, Lenny, unable to face the potential humiliation, decides to walk into the ocean and never return. Caught in a riptide, he begins to drown but is rescued by the unlikeliest of heroes: one of the school’s biggest and meanest bullies, Kyle.

It was so much fun watching Kyle transform from a bully into a caring individual who continues not only to surprise those around him but surprise himself as well. In Kyle and Lenny, we have two teenagers who have gone through difficult times but have dealt with them in different ways: Lenny by becoming nearly invisible (his nickname at school is “Zip-Lip” because he hardly ever even talks) and Kyle hiding behind his bullying facade and tough attitude. So in this way, both boys hid from the world in their own way.

I loved seeing the transformation as both boys evolved into something more, with each discovering themselves and each other in the process. I enjoyed watching their connection strengthen as the days passed, and they both started changing, both defying society’s expectations and overcoming their personal trauma. It was heartwarming how one of the school’s most terrifying individuals became a hero and how this affected everyone around them — but most of all, himself and Lenny. Mia Kerick really seems to understand the teenage soul—the longing, the self-awareness, the challenges, the fear, and the confusion.

There is real depth to this story as it delves into some pretty serious themes such as suicide, bullying, depression, parental rejection, abandonment, survival, homophobia, and fitting in, all of which the author handled expertly and compassionately. The author created here two characters that I couldn’t help but care deeply for. They were well-fleshed out with a satisfying character arc. Though the book is layered with complexities of identity and societal expectations, ultimately, Dead Sea ends being a beautifully written story about friendship, redemption, and first love.

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Review of As Far As You’ll Take Me by Phil Stamper

February 10, 2021 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

This is a delightful and moving coming of age story about a gay seventeen-year-old boy named Marty who escapes his ultra-conservative and ultra-religious parents by moving from Kentucky to London. He tells them he’s taking a summer music program and will be staying with his Aunt. What he doesn’t tell them is that he really didn’t get into the program, he’d only purchased a one-way ticket, and his Aunt will not be there for the entire summer.

We then following along with Marty as he makes new friends and obtains his first-ever boyfriend. But he also suffers from anxiety and is torn between his new life and the one he left behind, not quite sure where he fits in. So in this way, we see him creating new friendships while still trying to maintain the ones back home, and in the process, we get a compelling discussion around the topic of toxic friendships/toxic relationships.

I enjoyed journeying with Marty — through both his high moments and low moments — as he explored his identity and made a new life for himself. It was impressed by the brave risk he took in leaving home and moving to an entirely different country.

I also enjoyed the message here that, at times, the bonds of a family found or family chosen can be even stronger than a family bound by blood. And that’s what we have here, in which Marty creates a beautiful family for himself in London — a family that respects him. Additionally, it was fun seeing the surge of hope flow through him as he finally feels that he’s escaped his oppressive situation in the states and moves into a circle of friends where being gay is accepted and normalized.

I also enjoyed how the author tells the tale via two storylines: the present and through Marty’s journal entries from a year prior when he, along with his family, visited London. There were so many compelling themes to this story: friendship, religion, eating disorders, found family, anxiety, homophobia, betrayal, toxic relationships, and more.

All in all, I thought this was a fantastic, heart-warming story about a young man finding his place in the world. Another hit for me by Phil Stamper.

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Review of Boy Shattered by Eli Easton

January 1, 2021 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

Boy Shattered follows our two main characters, Brian and Landon, and takes place at Jefferson Waller High School. The story starts off as an ordinary day at school, and we’re introduced to our two protagonists, who, as of yet, barely know each other. Brian Marshall is a handsome and popular quarterback who is secretly hiding the fact that he’s gay, mainly because of his extreme right-wing gun-praising father and Landon Hughes, one of only a few openly out and proud gay students at the school.

The next day, two gunmen attack the school, and in the midst of the shooting rampage, Landon comes across Brian in the school cafeteria, bleeding out from a gunshot wound on the floor. Following his instincts, Landon immediately put pressure on the wound and saves Brian’s life.

What follows in the heart-wrenching aftermath of the school tragedy is the strong connection that forms between Brian and Landon. Brian is now living with severe PTSD and survivor’s guilt, and through it all, Landon ends up becoming Brian’s sole system of support. Brian now only feels safe when he’s in Landon’s presence and comes to depend on him. It’s also worth mentioning that the shooters were not caught, which only adds to Brian’s anxiety.

In the days that follow, Brian starts spending more and more time with Landon and his parents, and a powerful friendship developed between the two boys. It doesn’t take long for Brian to admit to Landon that he’s not only gay but that he’s had a secret crush on Landon for a while; though this admission doesn’t happen right away — the romance is definitely a slow burn.

I enjoyed that the story is told both from Brian and Landon’s point of view, allowing us to see both the events and the aftermath from both of their perspectives. We really get a feel for Brian’s fear, anxiety, and uncertainty and Landon’s strong desired to not only protect Brian but to enact permanent change. It also helped to show the different paths each had to take in order to heal from the event.

Now let me say that the first couple of chapters, which chronicled the events of the shooting massacre, were absolutely brutal to read. The author does not sugarcoat the events of the shooting nor the aftermath and steps us through the event in a realistic way. It then zeros in on the shell-shocked survivors in the subsequent days.

This story hit me hard: it’s raw, heart-shattering, visceral, and with so much horror and grief. And though it’s fiction, you realize while reading it that this has actually happened to real people in real life. That realization was extra tough to get through.

But through the tragedy, there is a silver lining, and that is the slow and tender romance that develops between Brian and Landon. Their story was hopeful and uplifting — a light that shines through the darkness. But though there was a romance between the two boys, the heart of this story was how each of them deals with the after-effects of the shooting, each coping and healing in different ways. It’s a psychological drama with so many serious and importing themes such as school violence, coming out, bullying, compassion, healing friendship, survivor’s guilt, gun control, innocence taken, PTSD, and first love. There is also a mystery to solve as the killers were not initially caught, which added extra intrigue and tension to the story.

Reading this story leaves you outraged, angry, sad, and frightened for our characters, but it also leaves you with hope at the end — that Brian and Landon, through their love, will be okay. So while this story is indeed gut-wrench and brutal, it is also beautiful in many ways. One of the more emotional elements in the story were Brian’s poems, which made me misty-eyed on a couple of occasions.

Yes, this is a painful story, but there’s a lot of beauty and heart to it as well. So if you have the fortitude to take on a story such as this one, you may find it as rewarding as I did. If you have PTSD, however, proceed with caution, as many people may find this too triggering.

All in all, I’m so glad this story came to my attention. I admit, I put off reading it for quite some time because of the heavy subject matter but ultimately, I’m glad that I finally picked it up. I’ve enjoyed every book that I’ve read by this author, and this one was no exception, though the author’s impressive writing skills really shone through in the story. Not every author has the writing chops to pull off what Easton did here.

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Review of Surrender Your Sons by Adam Sass

August 10, 2020 by Roger Hyttinen Leave a Comment

Blurb:

His SAT scores bombed, the old man he delivers meals to died, and when he came out to his religious zealot mother, she had him kidnapped and shipped off to a secluded island. His final destination: Nightlight Ministries, a conversion therapy camp that will be his new home until he “changes.”

But Connor’s troubles are only beginning. At Nightlight, everyone has something to hide from the campers to the “converted” staff and cagey camp director, and it quickly becomes clear that no one is safe. Connor plans to escape and bring the other kidnapped teens with him. But first, he’s exposing the camp’s horrible truths for what they are— and taking this place down.

Review:

This story follows Connor Major, a gay teen who, at the incessant urging of his boyfriend Ario, has just come out to his mother. She did not take it well at all, especially since she’s become quite a religious zealot after getting involved with a fundamentalist Christian church lead by a super-creepy pastor. Connor hopes his mom comes around and ends up accepting him, but instead, she has him kidnapped in the middle of the night and sent to a religious conversion camp on a secluded island off of Costa Rica.

And thus Connor’s nightmare begins.

This ended up being quite a disturbing thriller — a dark, raw, intense, and heartbreaking story that explored themes of suicide, homophobia, parental abuse, physical abuse, mental abuse, murder, conversion therapy, and religious zealotry. The author did an excellent job of capturing the camp’s horror and the terror of the campers into the written word. We witness firsthand the brutality of the “camp counselors” and the monstrous things they did to their young prisoners. So, in addition to being poignant, the story is atmospheric and evocative.

The author also gives us some fantastic side characters. I thought the queer kids in this story were utterly brave and commendable, considering the unimaginably terrifying situation in which they found themselves. No matter what monstrous events they faced, the theme of hope ran throughout the narrative. So though it was quite dark and creepy in places, there was always a light of hope in that darkness.

I loved the camaraderie and solidarity that developed between them as they faced imaginable odds and ended up turning the tables on their captors. In this way, this dark and disturbing survivalist story ends up being a hopeful tale of bravery and resilience.

Though it was an uncomfortable, intense, and violent book that delved into some pretty gritty places, it was also fast-paced, thrilling, twisty, and adventuresome. In fact, the entire story took place over a period of two days, which really lent a sense of urgency to it. The book also ended up being a compelling mystery as Connor, and a few other campers begin investigating the mysterious death of a former camper, leading them to uncover the camp’s deepest and darkest secrets. I found the story compelling, gripping, and unputdownable as the secrets were revealed to us one by one.

Surrender Your Sons had a satisfying conclusion with everything neatly tied up at the end and is well worth the read. I ended up loving this book and look forward to reading more by this author.

Thank you to Netgalley for providing me with a review copy of this book.

This title will be released on September 15, 2020 but is now available for preorder.

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